I am an intuitive healer. I will say that to people and they will say... a what? I have struggled over the years to define what that mean exactly. I still am not sure of the simple answer. But here goes...
First I will explain MY experience as a intuitive healer. It is a bit different for everyone. Also, beleive me, I am used to the non beleiver. Some of you will hear my words and think it is a bit or maybe a huge stretch from possible. I can also say that almost 100% of my clients leave beleiving. You cannot deny something if the truth is right there infront of you.
About 15 years ago I went to a workshop. The title was something like, "Color breathing threw your Chakras". I swear at this point in my life I had no spiritual life, was exhusted with my life and didnt really care about the subject of the workshop. I just needed education hours to keep my nursing current. I really didn"t want to be a nurse anymore. I did not feel like I was doing anything important. At the time I was head of Marketing and Admission at a local Nursing Facility. My day was spent dressing up and talking people into admiting their loved ones into very non healing place and hopefully they had cash to pay their way. I was needing a change and was very full of my own pain. On the edge of a chronic issue like Fibromyalga. It took me a very short time to recognise that this workshop changed my life forever, gave me something to fight for, something to help me discover who I really was underneath the exterior of myself that did not even question why I was on the planet, until now.
I sat with my mother in these metal chairs wondering what the hell I was doing here. It all seemed weird and out of text with nursing. I did feel intrigued. You see before this day I had heard many stories from my mother about how she would dream, unexpectedly about things that would happen in her life or even in someone elses. She would speak of the power of it and how it was very hard for her during times in her life. Up to this day, I had only one otherworldly experience. My brother Jimmy, who had died several years ago, woke me one night by the feeling of my mattress squishing down as he sat on my bed. There was no words that night. Only a feeling of his presence and the wave of emotion that something so fantastic could happen to me.
The subject of the workshop was a basic guided imagery. The teacher, who was so kind and peaceful it would make a stressed out person nervous....... began to talk, all we had to do was relax and follow her voice. Holy Shit!!!!! This was the scarest thing I have ever done. My mother sat next to me, following her voice like it was the most natural thing on the planet. Me, on the other hand had the appearence of a peaceful statue on the outside and was totally freaking out behind my closed eyes.
So, now.... as she spoke in the most calm voice about imagining the color coming into your body with each breath.... I followed. I did what she said. I imagined the color red entering the energy center at the root of my body. Having not even a small clue what that ment. Just listening, breathing, quite in my mind, except for the strange relaxing music and her voice. But... Then... IT began to happen. I saw the colors vividly. As I breathed them in like it was the most natural thing in the world.. then looking at the colors like I had just smoked a fatty! The feeling of breathing in the colors was euphoric, I was floating. I could feel my body acutely but had this strange question in my mind, such as.... are my feet still placed on the ground and where does my body end and the rest of the room begin..
You see, I was experiencing some mighty strong opening in my body, some deep relaxation and surrender. When you meditate, you dont have to leave your body to sense something different within it. Esspecially if the body you have been living in is full of disapointment, fear and stress. As I unwillingly surrendered to her voice for a few moments I surrendered, Then came the panic, heat and tremendous fear. I listened threw my root chakra, my pelvis, bringing in the red and orange colors that signify that area and bringing with the breath and color, healing. Moving to yellow for my solor plexis.... expanding, becoming hotter and hotter in my body. Like molten lava was being poured over my head, my heart beating to the point of wearing it self out. Next came my heart center. now I am begining to go into a full blown panic attact. I shut myself down. Stopped feeling and went back to my normal state. The feeling did not intensify, but remained an acute, intense vibration that was rattling my teeth with awareness that something huge just happened. Because of my lack of self, I did not have the guts of get up in the middle of this peaceful moment everyone else was having. I just sat alone in my panic, heart skipping everyother beat.
As she slowly brought the room back to themselves and their bodies, everyone taking their deep cleansing breaths. I just waited. Imagine a high strung horse waiting behind the gate in a cage for the bell to ring and the metal to move out of the way. LET ME THE OUT OF HERE! Thats all I could think of. The room opened their eyes. I worried that I was glowing this strange shade of red, the heat radiating out into the room from my frightened body. But, as I opened my eyes everything was as is was before the madness started only for me. I quickly grabbed my mother the moment we where finish and we left. Making it to the parking lot. I grabbed her arm because i could not walk any further. My whole body sweating, heart pounding in my chest, unable to walk forward, only able to walk back to where I was a few monemts ago. We went back into the building. I breathlessly explained to my new teacher that I was panic stricken and on fire. Literally, I was so so hot inside and out.
She said she would "ground me" and that should help. She proceeded to kneel down and hold my feet as if they where not doing what they where suppose to be doing. Pulling me back to earth as if my head was a hot air balloon. This was such a true statement for my state of mind and health. This I would learn in the future months, as I cured a chronic sinus infection with the same breathing excersises. Her attempt to help me, worked enough for me to ask some questions and run our the door with information for the next workshop in my sweaty hand. A feeling of excitment almost over running my the fear that this was only the beginning. I had experiences a sliver of something bigger than my .... beleiving in nothing but mundane, day after day .... life.
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My name is Christina Laughton. I live in the country in NC. I have made it a long standing practice study ways to achieve health and peace in life through allowing your true self to be seen. I have fostered many unusual abilities such as seeing, hearing and sensing the usually unseen. Then finding the understanding of how to apply this to your life, to bring a balance to your mind, body and spirit. When in alignment with yourself you will always bring healing to all parts of your life.