I am going to talk a bit about my experience with peoples reactions in regards to what is quickly becoming a lifestyle for me. Just to bring you up to speed. About 6 months ago i decided I was going to change my life. The prominent thing was the need to sleep at night due to working the night shift. I decided to learn how to create a joyful life, living in perfect alignment with my authentic self. With the thought of creating more sleep, that opened up many more problems that I would need to fix. Picture an old old house that needs new wallpaper. You start to peel the wallpaper off and there is more layers. Then the last layer of paper leaving literally shows you holes in the wall. Not just holes but it is horsehair and plaster and the wall needs to come down. The wall coming down shows you that there is no insulation.... you get the picture. I need more sleep, I need a new way of making money, I don't want to work for someone else, I want to finally use my natural abilities to help others find their own, I want to live somewhere different, I want support.... The list builds and builds.
What I have come to completely believe is we can create our lives, its physics, its energy. We are energetic beings. This is not religion or woo woo hippie stuff... this is proven science. Learn how to use that to your advantage and it is like magic. That is what I decided to do. I began to understand that I could not figure it all out. If I tried to figure out the details then I would worry. Worry creates a block in the flow of energy to create. I started with positive talk and emotions with very broad results. Such as... I am so well rested. I am so grateful I sleep well in my bed every night. With as much feeling and gratitude I could muster. Believing it has already happened, it just has not manifested in the physical yet.
I am not going to tell the whole story here, but you can see the theme. All of this leads up to, I quit my job to start my own business and now am moving back to MA to be in a different work environment with family and friends all around me. I decided months ago to commit to the process of letting my words and feelings create my new life. I want to teach others how to do this, I feel commented to walking my talk in order to say It can be done because I have done it myself. That means I do not figure stuff out, I do not react from a place of fear and do something I don't want to because I feel I have to.
This all brings me to a place of so much trust. Every step of the way, all day long I receive messages, signs that direct me. It is as if the whole universe is up to bat for me and carrying me from one place to another. To the place that I am suppose to be so that I can live a life with as much joy as possible. All I have need to do is get out of the way and follow the bread crumbs.
Yesterday I decided to commit to writing a book. This story of how I got from NC to MA will be so full of magic. The very interesting thing to me is how much my commitment to my walk creates a fear reaction in other people. It is like a magnifying glass of how they would feel in my situation and how they feel I should react. The more I settle in to this, the more strong and direct the comments are of how I should proceed differently. I guess it is sort of a test for me and a confirmation that I am going in the right direction. Last night I was texting with a friend and telling her I did not know where I was going to stay when I go to MA this week. Here is me over here waiting for my gift of lodging, knowing it will come with the perfect situation for all involved. She replied with a fear based pragmatic statement that I should be going in a different direction. I replied that I had complete faith that things are all being taken care of and that I just had not received the physical notice yet. At that exact moment my daughter texted me out of the blue with a picture(below) for no apparent reason on her part. This was the second time in one day this happened. I was literally in the middle of two choices, both being offered at the same time. I could choose to feel the fear or the trust and love. Both times I was not even tempted by the fear. It is an amazing feeling of freedom not to be afraid. To feel cared for by all. What I mean is the love and support feels like a group effort, a collective thing that is all on my side. Not a love from one place that you may need to feel complete, but a universal feeling that no matter what happens, everything will work out in my favor.
The word is trust and her hand is on her heart. How perfect is that timing? How perfect is that word? All day long, everyday this is how things go. There is no doubt I am headed in the right direction. I have decided to live my life without fear. Period.
My conversation last night and my friends fear reaction was about taking an office in another state, before I knew where I was going to sleep. When I went to bed last night I just dwelled on that happy warm feeling of gratitude for being shown exactly where I was going to stay for the first few weeks in MA, which starts this Thursday. This morning my phone woke me up with a message from an old friend.... long story short, she offered me a big beautiful room for me and my pug to stay in in Bridgewater, MA while I am getting my stuff straight with my office. About 15 minutes from where I will be working.
My mantra.....Everything always works out for me! I believe it so it has to be true.
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My name is Christina Laughton. I live in the country in NC. I have made it a long standing practice study ways to achieve health and peace in life through allowing your true self to be seen. I have fostered many unusual abilities such as seeing, hearing and sensing the usually unseen. Then finding the understanding of how to apply this to your life, to bring a balance to your mind, body and spirit. When in alignment with yourself you will always bring healing to all parts of your life.