As I sit here and struggle, as I do often, with how to start.... how to keep going with what may be one of my life purposes, I decide all I need to do is try.
Lately, I have had many experiences with restless spirits. Ones that are just here, hanging on and hanging out, instead of going where they should after they leave their bodies. Never are they happy and content. These are the ones that cling to living people or haunt their remembered comfortable spots. They are restless, confused and miserable or sometimes completely in denial that they should be doing something else besides remaining here.
What if they did not try, some of them. What if they did not listen to the whispers we all hear about what direction we should go while we are alive. We all hear that call at some level. We all deny it at times. For some it is so strong they cannot deny it. For others, no matter how loud our memories of our life plan we constructed for ourselves screams out in every cell ...... we close our eyes and stick our fingers in our ears and scream la la la so we can not hear it loud enough, clear enough to push us into motion. Some of us eat too much, work to hard filling time with fruitless jobs, drugs, alcohol, sex, remain in abusive relationships.... you know, you know what I mean. When life is over we are left with " Shit, I was suppose to do something else...... but I didn't." "I remember now, but it is too late." I have seen it so many times. At that point when we leave our bodies, it is too late to complete your purpose. I have had many spirits tell me that they remember after they die what they where suppose to do because their knowing is much more clear. The clutter of being alive starts to move away like fog in the early hours of the day, and then we are left with the tokens we brought to take the ride but the park is closed and we have to go home.
One spirit that I have worked with recently was a middle aged women who died of cancer. One of the very important things she was suppose to do was find and use the knowledge of her self worth. To simply step into who she already was and stand up for herself, filling her own shoes to show those around her that she was a strong, powerful being that should not be walked on, used and abused by those around her. The reason for accomplishing this task was to unlock her self-worth. Allowing her daughter to then be free of the burden of her mothers genetically bound "curse". Am I using proper words to define all this, who the hell knows. I do know that some of you reading this will know exactly what I am talking about. We have things to do for our children. Hurdles to cross, if we choose, so our children do not have to. As you witness generation after generation of women repeating the pattern of low self worth, we have to recognize that if you take responsibility for it in your generation, it will help our children not have to continue the same path. Of course they will have their own struggles, but, we have to try..... That's the key, We have to TRY. In life she was swept away by the drama and did not wake up enough to try. In death she was bound in almost a ..... Oh crap moment.... when you get home from the grocery store and forgot the one thing that you went there for. Too late to go back and get it. Her regret and heaviness was great. Not for herself, but for her daughter, because she realized that her life goal was not just about her, but it was about her ancestors and future generations. Her daughter right now is literally dealing with exactly the same problems she was in her life. She is powerless to change the pattern because she is no longer physically here. Hence the unhappy, restless spirit syndrome, now powerless and frustrated.
When this happens, I believe it is devastating and does not really matter at the same time. There is no going back. There is no redo at that moment. Just like when we make a big mistake of any kind in life.... you just have to keep going on to the next thing and hope you can try harder, pay attention more and do better at the next thing you do.
I ask you all to think about the things you do each day that you know you should not because it is hurting you or those around you. Then try to stop, each day just try. Admit to yourself what you need to change for yourself and your children. Its the trying that counts. Its the trying that is notices by those around you, especially your children. If you can not make the change you need to at least be honest that you are not strong enough to try yet, but you are aware of the problem. It makes a difference. If you have that feeling in your gut, whisper in your mind each day, each week that you are suppose to be doing something...... then do it! damn it! Before it is too late.
If you heart screams that you are suppose to be an artist but your profession is a doctor. You cant imagine finding time to pursue your dream..... then stop and find the time. Just try! There is always a way. If you try, then there is not room for regrets. Its very important to... TRY.
Picture this.... Your life is over and you are leaving your body, you are free of all the clutter of life. Can you picture it? No work, no cravings for earthly things, no fatigue..... just clear vision. What would be left? What important thing/things would you remember that you forgot to do? What is important now? Sit for a few minutes and visualize that happening to you. You may be surprised at what is left for you to think about. Then try, try, try.
Till next time....... blue skies and lovely dreams
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My name is Christina Laughton. I live in the country in NC. I have made it a long standing practice study ways to achieve health and peace in life through allowing your true self to be seen. I have fostered many unusual abilities such as seeing, hearing and sensing the usually unseen. Then finding the understanding of how to apply this to your life, to bring a balance to your mind, body and spirit. When in alignment with yourself you will always bring healing to all parts of your life.